Wednesday, October 16, 2013

But, why on Earth are we.... on Earth?

In last post, I wrote about existence of something beyond our physical and tangible, carbon life-form based reality. And no, I didn’t discover this profound truth. It has always been known to us – through scriptures, the word of God, the wisdom of the super races. It’s been called by many names – atma, soul, cosmic consciousness, the Unmanifested, God, Universe, and probably others that I haven’t discovered yet.

 

I also mentioned that I believe that we are all here because we signed up to experience this soap opera with the goal to ‘learn’ something in the process. Why do we need to learn anything at all? Why we couldn’t have already been made as a completely sorted entity? These are for a discussion at some other date and time. That question seriously confounds me. It is one of those things that must only be debated, without any hope whatsoever of coming to a conclusion. You are a soul. You are here in this Virtual Reality classroom. You enrolled here. And…You must learn something. Deal with it, already!!

 

How do we learn that elusive something? We learn through the life situations thrown our way, but not just any random, usual, run-of-the-mill event – we learn through challenges. What, pray, is a challenge? Challenge is something that impacts the mind, the heart and the soul. Hundreds of people may cross our path during one lifetime (one instance of Virtual Reality…lol, am getting hooked on to this reference), but a handful few will leave a mark. Thousands of events will transpire over the decades of our living years and in the lives of people around us – and for most of these events we will be no more than silent spectators. Only few dozens would really shake us up. Going beyond, millions of events take place every microsecond around the world that we don’t even know about, but one or two of these during our lifetimes (like an Earthquake or a war) would actually touch us personally. Mass events would be few, but may make a major difference in how we were.

 

These special people, and these so called freak events – the ones that really impact us – to the core, are the challenges, the tests given to the souls – to impart some learning. I had read somewhere, probably a Buddhist saying, that in the classroom of life tests come first, and teaching comes later. So true!

Birth, Death, finding Friends, losing them, falling in Love, heartbreaks, Success, Failure, Achievements and Accidents, finding of hidden strengths, soul connections - are some of the ‘challenges’ that are specially designed for our benefit, and we know they are important somehow – because they impact us somewhere deep inside – in places we didn’t even know existed. It’s usually like an activation of a part of us that was dormant till now, until this test triggered it and made it alive. The events that trigger an intense feelings of being happy, elated, joy, unconditional love, sadness, hurt or anger are the signs of a real test – that tells us that something is different than usual status quo. Even restlessness, without reason, means something needs to be filtered and heard through the din of our existential noises.

 

There are tiny surprise tests that would only gauge your grasp on the particular learning. There could be more involved tests that will nudge your core, but just to see how strong you really are. And then there would be full-blown, lightening-from-the-sky, soul-shattering tests – that actually shake the bejesus out of you. These last ones are the ones that induce transformation, supposedly help you move up a soul-class (if you learn and pass the test) and bring you closer to salvation. 

 

If you fail these tests, well guess what – the test would just repeat all over again. No fun that!

It is all a big ‘mayajal’ – the Matrix – the web of illusions, if you will – where we are thrown curve balls every now and then, and we gotta figure out the right technique and our play strategy to strike back. And that’s great, because sooner or later each one of us, each soul, figures it out. We don’t really have a choice – do we? Because this intelligent Matrix will keep on sending us the same situations – until we crack the code and pick the right option.

 

But, you ask, how do we know what is the right path?

Good question!!

Apparently, that’s where our inner voice comes into play. But it is so damn tiny, almost a whisper, that lot of pre-work needs to be done before we can hear it. To make our challenge little more interesting, this whisper is whispered in some other language. So it’s not only about learning the ‘art of silence’ to hear it. Upon finally hearing it, we must decrypt and understand it too. Almost makes you want to raise your hands, and give up, doesn't it?
 

There is good news, however.

 

Once we connect with our inner self – really connect, only first few times are tough. Invariably, we would figure out a way to go inwards quickly, and invariably, we learn the language. And then, going through the tests, the curve balls, is a piece of cake!!
 
Details on this... in a few days! :)

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Do i have a soul?


My Tarot Card today was: HERMIT REVERSED. Which basically means, that Gods of tarot are telling me "don’t be alone today". i agree! Just had ping from a friend saying that he went for a long ride on his Harley Davidson Iron. Must have been an awesome ride. He had asked me yesterday. I was too dead and too emotional then to socialize – but should have gone with him. It sounded exciting. I must keep doing things I love to do. Who said I can't be emotionally messed up, and having fun - at the same time? There are no rules - after all, we are all just playing a role in a movie, aren't we?
Here's my theory:
Life is all about doing what you want to do… within reason and without hurting anyone. Right?

We signed up for this virtual reality experience called Earth, like "Total Recall" – and exactly like in the movie – we have tough time separating reality from drama; truth from stories; and real purpose from false priorities. We agreed to let some of our consciousness be suppressed, and we agreed to the story we would live. And when we come here on Earth – time slows down. The story builds gradually – from birth through growth years, when our mindset is developed, our social structures defined, our mental blocks created, and our basic thought process is formed. So much so that we become our story. And then the Plot unfolds with a series of events and situations and people coming into our life, and treating us in a certain way. By then, we are so interwoven in our emotions, and dramas, and story - that its hard to take a step back and look at it all clinically. We are meant to feel it all, but we are also meant to detach from drama, and learn.

The whole exercise of existence is to learn how to separate truth from fiction – and consequently ego from real feelings, and then learn to act on those feelings, on what your heart tells you. Because head would always have conditioning and phobias and ego. Heart would show the right path. The real guidance comes from listening to our heart. Sounds easy? Its not…

Why all this elaborate drama in life - you ask?

Well, I don’t know exactly. Like i said, we signed up for it. Maybe in soul state – there aren’t any challenges, or so they say – all those people who had glimpses of the soul state, and the ones that Dr Michael Newton (and others) regressed to the soul state. For all we know – as souls, we are just another intelligent race who lives in an ether world – with their own set of challenges, but obviously we can not even comprehend that scenario. The physical reality was possibly created as an environment to role play, with an end goal to learn something. What are we meant to learn?

I don’t know that either. If one of you has a theory – do share!!

We don’t know much. Like one question that has bothered me since I was eight years old – is how Universe could have no end? And how could it be infinite? Because, even if it is infinite, there has to be something beyond it. Right? Why do we exist? Are we just a product of some crazy chemical reaction or are we something more? Does soul really exist?

Remember TRUMAN SHOW. They created a whole contained world for him, with everyone else playing a character to lead Truman in a certain direction, and also established boundaries to his world. But he ‘knew’ there was more behind people’s masks, and the world just doesn’t end at the town limits. He could sense it. That sensing came from within him. If he had only seen the facts, what his eyes showed him, and what his mind interpreted – he would have had no urge to even seek beyond the ‘walls’. What a beautiful movie…

I, and everyone else, ‘knows’ that we are not just a carbon based life-form. We are more. We feel it. We feel it somewhere beyond our conscious mind. Is that soul? Is that our subconscious? It doesn’t matter. Call it whatever you will. What is important is the URGE. The urge to explore, seek, find….

We are so insignificant in the whole scheme of things. Yet, we somehow matter in this whole web of creation. We matter, big time!

Somehow!! How? I don’t know that yet.

Will think about it, and I am sure I will have a theory someday. The fun part is that in this Virtual Reality game, I have complete and total freedom of thought and speech. I know I can think anything, I can let my imagination soar and I can reach anywhere my soul wants to be – and as long as my ego is ok to be wrong, it is a fun analysis at worst, and some real epiphany at best. It’s a win win…

For now – I just know that “I am not, and yet I am…”

And yes, there is something beyond my mind and body. Its my soul!

What's in the name?

Hello People,

They (don't ask me who) told me that blogging the first few lines of your raw, innermost self - for the first time - is one of the toughest thing you would ever do.

Here it is, my first post ever lines... Drum rolls please!!

So, what will I write about?
- Just my experiments with life on Planet Earth (or this instance of parallel Universe),
- about trying to figure out cosmic meaning in things/people/events that affect me,
- and share my spiritual insights about everything
- recipes for success (and food sometimes, if it really touches my soul)
- everything else....

I don’t know anything about anything. I don’t claim to be an expert. Shit happens in my life too, same as yours and everyone else’s. All I do is try to figure some of it out because I don’t think I have processing power to analyze every thing that happens, all the noise around me.
So, I prioritize – usually I close my eyes, and think of what is affecting my feelings, my heart chakra – the most. And I try to think about it. I have means, let me tell you. I am special and connected (same as everyone else) to Cosmic Consciousness (CC). To be honest, it could be just the onset of some mental disorder, but I don’t care. I like to feel I am connected, I feel the energy flow, I sense the vibes and am usually right, and sometimes I have an epiphany....

Epiphany (feeling)

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
 
An epiphany (from the ancient Greek ἐπιφάνεια, epiphaneia, "manifestation, striking appearance") is an experience of sudden and striking realization. Generally the term is used to describe scientific breakthrough, religious or philosophical discoveries, but it can apply in any situation in which an enlightening realization allows a problem or situation to be understood from a new and deeper perspective. Epiphanies are studied by psychologists[1][2] and other scholars, particularly those attempting to study the process of innovation.[3][4][5]
Epiphanies are relatively rare occurrences and generally follow a process of significant thought about a problem. Often they are triggered by a new and key piece of information, but importantly, a depth of prior knowledge is required to allow the leap of understanding.

 
For me - Epiphany is an 'a-ha' moment. They pop up in my head out of nowhere, and sometimes after lot of thinking. Whatever the process - they make complete sense to me, and trigger changes that help me handle certain repeating patterns in my life, in a better way. Success stories happen when patterns that I do not want – actually stop! So, I have learnt to trust the guidance that comes from CC through these striking realizations.
Writing here, at the cost of a possible ridicule, because ‘expressing myself’ is certainly a challenge area. I find it tough to emote, and say things I want to say to people who really matter to me. I am scared to be vulnerable. I shouldn’t be. Because what is inside me – is mine. And if I share it, and its not accepted – it doesn’t change my reality - or anyone else's for that matter. So, here, this – the COSMIC EPIPHANY – is my own experiments with truth and survival. It is my guide, but it would be awesome if even one other soul out there gels with anything I write here.
Disclaimer: I say again that I don’t claim to be an expert on anything, but that doesn’t mean I am not a good student of life.